Discussion with Julia led me to realise the importance of making the piece UGLY. In my initial show back in week 6, I performed about 5 minutes of falling/stress positions/wavering to mechanical music, stretching out certain stress positions and keeping them precise. The fall was natural, as I would let my legs give way and allow my body to fall as organically as I could, without hurting myself, which resulted in a kind of flop to one side, landing first on my thigh and once this was attained, allowing the rest of my body to gently hit the ground. This worked in regards to exploration, and examining what affects the process had on those watching - the stress positions when held for a very long time undermined the audience's expectations of how long something should be sustained on stage within 'theatre time', thus leaving them feeling uncomfortable which was what I hoped to achieve - however as Julia explained and I had thought, it was too beautiful; the word swan was used, and although an element of beauty is not a problem, I don't believe this truly reflects the elements of a seizure I want to explore. A truthful seizure is ugly, abstract, contorted, and stress positions and falls which emphasise these will be more affecting for my audience to watch. This introduces a definite element of artificiality, because I will no longer be falling naturally but instead breaking down these falls and exaggerating the disjointed fragments. I am going to emphasise the particularity and really run with that. Each position will not be like yoga but ugly and unnaturally but utterly controlled, and though they shall remain stagnant I will pulse inside them, ensuring the animation of a fit is not lost. This also pays homage to an orgasm.